"That was the most down period in my life, ... I was afraid of everything. I didn't think I could do anything anymore, and I basically just stayed at home. Literally, I woke up one day and thought, 'OK, what's my life going to be like 5, 10, 30 years out from now, if I keep doing this?' And I thought, 'Oh my God, I'm going to have a long, boring life. I've got to do something to change this.'"